He said I'm stronger than I give myself credit for, but that's why I'm strong. It just left me thinking; I like my little brother. And I don't... think I'm strong. But it doesn't matter, everything about my body and mind would be weak if it was left to my own desires and capabilities. I think that was his point. I am not used to crediting my own flesh; I know how to get on my knees. I'm just lucky to be alive and walking.
But I can't sell myself short in my efforts by any means. My body and mind were gifts i was told to use. No one can do my life for me. Sometimes I wish I wasn't living in a particular moment I created - but even then - God's plan gave us an extra hand - we are never the only one. When I cry, that's me crying. When I laugh, that's me laughing. And He's probably doing that too.
I think there will always be moments and people in my life that make me question. And at the end of the day, it is I who gets to choose the answer. I'm glad to have people in my life who make me question, who make me fight for what I want; who allow me to use my agency.
Some might say babies are the weakest. I think they're the strongest. I mean, it's not easy one day seeing this earth the way it is and the next being placed in here with all these confused and jaded adults knowing you are going to have to become one. But it's a body - and it's amazing - and we're living. Sometimes the world sees us as weak, but God knows we're strong and will make it. And we won't come to know a stronger man than the Lord - for He came to lift us all up. So when you think you have too much to hold, think again.
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