Love until it runs out and then you'll see that it never does.

So apparently I'm slacking these days. I feel like I write so many emails that the last thing I want to do is express more of my opinions (I know, weird right?). So even though I found my husband... (that will be weird to get used to)... there are still things to be said. There is no end to the madness.

Sometimes I want to talk about wedding ideas and other days I don't even want to mention the word. It's so easy to get caught up on planning the details that we forget the larger concept, i.e. committing your soul eternally. It's a big step we have waited for our entire life (23 is so old o.m.g), and then once that day comes, we fight trying to understand that step our entire life.

I say November 5th and people follow it up with "this November?!" Yup.

I can say it slower if that helps solidify things.

So because I am not turning this into a wedding blog, I will just keep up with the little black book appeal. I actually have one, and I love it. Lots of random notes. Here is some excerpts from last Sunday. The topic was on divine worth and self esteem (I don't actually ever like talking to girls about this topic - I think because girls become emotional and I don't do well with emotional girls).

"The Lord wants to make sure no one is forgotten. In those moments where you feel alone, the Lord is standing there waiting or even perhaps, already holding you. At times - all the time - we must learn that we cannot turn to the world for our sense of worth. You are a soul sent here to live and return again faithfully. The hard part here is understanding an abstract concept. We know it, but knowledge was initially removed and we have to search and act in specific ways to get it back. We can talk about who Christ was, but you have to decide how real He is and how real our purpose is.

We have our time and our potential defined in Christ's mission for us. Keep doing good things and you will be guided in the right direction. We will find what real happiness is and the judgments of others and the comparisons won't matter.

I don't think we have to know our purpose yet. I think if you think you know you're probably wrong. We limit ourselves too much, surely the Lord has more in store. We aren't perfect so we think we fail. We don't think trying to do good and learning something new is significant enough. The thing is, we give up too soon with that attitude.

I do believe we are the steward of our own happiness. There will always be flaws in yourself and others. Learn to love them any way and focus not on yourself and not just on others, but what you can do for others. Sometimes, that's educating yourself so that you can teach. Sometimes that's reaching out instead of reaching in. We can look more to the sunrises and the sunsets and believe in something greater. Your purpose is different from anyone else, so don't compare. Keep your own trials and learn everything you can.

This life is too short to think you can do it tomorrow, but too long to think it's too late. Take hold of your own attitude. Love until it runs out and then you'll see that it never does."