colors affect my mood. and so do people.

I know we can create a lesson for every incident or occurrence in our life. People come in and out of your life every day.

And some are good and are angels to my mortal existence,
while others are like those ants that you smash but they never really die.

that's extreme. more like the noise of a clicking pen, or the drop of a broken water faucet. how about your neighbor's uncut grass? bad breathe? you name it...

But apparently I'm choosing to learn patience. Because why should I be so ungrateful and think I don't need to be patient? Why do I think I should get everything the way I want it when I want it? Stupid America.



What is real forgiveness? I will not be forgiven if I do not forgive. I always thought that came easy to me. It's easy for people I care about. That's the kicker. True character if you can show love to those you don't even like? I've just uncovered several "kayla biases" and those are hard to forgive - when people are what annoy me - to a T.

oh torment.

PS people that don't take care of themselves physically, emotionally, economically, spiritually - bother me. if you're trying - i dig. If you're not - omg I have nothing further to say to you. People that are all talk and no do. Yeah I hate liars -worse - I hate people that lie to themselves.

I know that I act differently from what you might initially see me as. I know that I never get things right on the first try and I hope someone will give me a second chance. So I do - I try to give people the benefit of the doubt - even when I make my judgment calls. But now it's time for me to just be smart and own the fact that you - are just a lesson.