I do know what tomorrow is going to be like. I know how it will begin, and typically how each hour will roll by and then end. There could be a surprise. There's that chance every second of our lives - that something unexpected and unpredicted could knock on our door.
So far, everything is as I could have predicted. I'm not testing God or anything. I would just like a few surprises.
I bought a cork board/marker board at Goodwill today. I think it completes my room. Very unpredicted like. (right)
Some days I just want to be sure. I never feel like I am anymore. Life is too short to live these moments second guessing. Sometimes I feel like all I have are random bits of ideas with no cohesive plan or union. I want the parts of me to collaborate.
It's true how we see other people live, and we think how wonderful it would be to have what those people have. But then they wonder the same about you. We all have bits and pieces and we're all desperately trying to find more pieces.
Today I thought of everyone I had forgotten. My best friends from BYU, all the memories of trying to figure out life as we knew it, back then. My best friends from home - where each of us are now - knowing we've changed, but not that much. And then my family. We've stuck it out through thick and thin. We are all getting so old now.
Nostalgic enough to make you barf?
These people made me though. These people held my hand even when they didn't know it.
Now I am back to the groups of people I don't know.
You know me, I'm quiet in groups.
It's a miracle knowing I have a lot of friends that do understand me
or don't and still like me. I know it's a miracle.
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