thursday nights

thursday nights

tonight - no energy, fake smiles were even hard

it's so hard to be excited for the event ive slowly come to hate

novel experiences are so exciting

I have to realize this is everyone's first time,

even if it isn't mine.

suck it up kayla. suck it up

smile.

I am not a waitress and most definitely try to FAKE it thursday nights

my least favorite night.

I pour the drinks either too fast or too slow. I hate fatty ice.

I have to apologize for not having alcohol

or that children still need an adult ticket to eat

they expect my arm to extend a million feet to the right

without touching them

because heaven forbid we take and pass

you need a fork, you need a napkin, you need a refill

did you forget about my napkin?

I'm sorry, you're right, you're the only thing on my mind right now.

Dang it, totally just remembered I forgot the lady's napkin

It's okay. There are no tips at this gig.

As long as they leave mostly happy and satisfied for wasting money.

Tuesday night I did get a $5 tip. I win.

Dancing and passing out ketchup is so much easier

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Today, I also met with the models we're casting.

I was pleasantly surprised that the majority of them are really cool

and by majority I mean 6/1. And miss princess dropped out. figures.

I feel ashamed for judging them.

And then I watched an episode of Housewives of Orange County

which made me hate high maintenance women even more

So I still have my judgments, including the men that support it.

rich people with fake drama. get over yourself and save the starving children

yes fake boobs sound nice, but botox? just accept we're made to get older.

Stop making the unfortunate ones look even worse. not bitter

at least I aint petty.

speaking of getting older.

I'm 22. For some reason that sounds SO OLD

And I have a feeling it aint gonna get better

good thing I don't really care about my birthday. ya know - hey yall celebrate me!

no.

mom, we should celebrate you. I did nothing but poop.

not much has changed in 22 years

just kidding, that's gross. Girls can't talk like that.

I also hate how society tells me what is appropriate.

I might be one of the most inappropriate people you know.

But you most likely won't know it; I try to control myself

I'm waiting for you to set me free.

until then, I'm going to strum on my guitar until I can find a melody

okay, I'm still trying to find a guitar

By the time I can play for you, I'll be awesome.