eyes of faith

I found myself repeating this line: "Satan, the father of lies, has an advantage because we must see the reality of who we are through the eyes of faith, while our bodies make us subject to carnal temptation and to physical weakness."

I fall short to my own hopes and expectations at times. I find myself questioning my thoughts and questioning innocence. I have come to discover that having thoughts is normal and honestly inevitable, but I have to rise above my thoughts and carnal urges. I have to realize it doesn't matter what I own and what my title is, the fact that faith in a Heavenly Father overrides all insecurities provides me with a sense of instant belonging and appreciation. It is the Atonement that cures every disease. We are strangers in a carnal world. We are weak and exceptionally drawn toward the "that's what she said" jokes. We get sick with the flu and we get sick from emotional heartache and addictions. We are tempted to self doubt and pride. Even to hate our neighbor. We are tempted to see only what seems to be there, never what could be - always pessimistic and easily offended. You see her as average, never exceptional.

What spoke to me was this idea of another set of eyes. These eyes are a gift we have to ask for. It's a gift involving endurance and an increasing desire to rise higher - not in competition, but in the power of finding personal happiness as an individual son or daughter. It's believing in a concept we don't naturally see. Seeing through the eyes of faith ignores instant gratification and some of our deepest urges to cross the line. Seeing through faith blinds us from first impressions and fake smiles. Everything that matters is seen through the eyes of faith. Because our body keeps us living now, but our faith keeps us living forever. But don't get me wrong - I do love my body and that keeps me alive here - physically alive and physically happy - I just have to make sure it reflects a life of faith.

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Today, I let my toes dangle freely off the edge

The wind trickles up the soles of my feet and gently entangles itself within my hair

it's a warm wind

Only the sun knows how to touch so perfectly (maybe)

For a moment

I forgot about time

and found that I was okay just existing

The sky let me close my eyes

and peacefully sleep

Nothing else mattered; not him, not them

And I woke to a ladybug kissing my sunglasses

so I watched her.

yeah... one of those perfect moments