outside of the hour clock that just keeps passing sand

When it comes to how things work and how we as humans keep breathing and moving forward - I am clueless at times, most times. I understand that we should entrust our worries to the Lord and let them go. I understand that a life of faith and obedience leaves no room for fear. But how to become completely faithful and obedient is where I realize I am treading unchartered waters for my life path. I realize my path is my own. I realize my path will overlap with various others, and there is even one person who will join mine and carry it through to the end; however, it's still a billion sand specs to me.

I am defined by a childhood, by my first steps of college independence, my desire to create a new home apart from the familiar, and by a future I shall not predict, but attempt to create - outside of the hour clock that just keeps passing sand.

I don't forget the past; I use it to evolve a better future. I might decide to change some things. Most likely, I will just have to fight really hard to push through habits already formed. It's hard to ask a risk adverse person to just jump in. I've never liked jumping. I've always been too scared to fall.