Am I sad amazing girls get overlooked and guys don't always give them enough time? yes. Am I sad some girls just don't know how to make it happen? yes. Is there something I can do? Hurry up and get married, move out of the singles ward, and if I have to make amends for all the wrongs I've made, God will put my husband in the Bishopric of a YSA ward.
I guess I just like to assume eventually people will have their time - that it's all in the Lord's plan. Maybe there is something these kids (myself included) are missing. We can all whine, truly. But at the end of the day, what's the resolution we are looking for? Perhaps the Lord isn't going to force two people to talk and force two people to give each other a chance, even if he knows it can work. Lovers out there (those who still dote on their spouse) - please raise your hand. Now jump up and down screaming
"I'm a miracle."
Droughts and typhoons we call it.
It's very unsteady weather these days. I think God wants me to understand the two very distinct lessons.
1. Appreciate who I am regardless of how other people see me or don't see me. I need to know I am a child of God and really come to understand what that means. I also need to learn how to rely on Him and make time to grow and discover talents that make me a better person for the world. As well as patience; doesn't the world need a little more patience.
2. And then, when I finally get everything I ever wanted with some overkill on top, I need to be grateful and appreciate the affection by showing people how much I can care, as well as do all the things I said I would do when I finally got to this miracle.
Yes, this period of time involves some big decisions that are made for me. I take the initiative to forge my own future; however, that is never at the expense of another's feelings or without the primary motive of a life given to service and an eternal plan. So as long as my selfish desires are made in the righteous direction of uplifting the kingdom - is it really what we would call selfish? No, I don't think so. I think we have to decide what's good for us. We have to find our purpose through the Lord's direction. Others come and go. I'm out to find my #1.
But I'm definitely going to have fun along the way.
So no - in no way is this post saying I'm getting married.
We're all just trekkin.
I'm fighting now for our children - the last generation. They need a good daddy. And mama has to step it up.
Current Song: "I Got It", Gorilla Zoe
(clean version - ish)
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