If you asked me whether or not I'd prefer to talk or not talk, I would probably say not talk only because it's easier. I would much rather me listen and just comment. I don't like feeling obligated to fill the space and 85% of the time I suck at really beginning a good conversation. I would much rather you take the initiative and carry that responsibility. Selfish of me huh? I'd rather just hike or play basketball, or shop or paint, or listen to music or watch the movie, or cook or kiss. It's hard to just sit and talk. This is why I avoid the phone.
I always have a comment though - but not everyone can take them/understand them. There isn't really anything you could ask me that I wouldn't discuss. Again, I'm just not normally the one who is raising her hand to share.
Sometimes I dish out crap, and you should feel at ease to push it back. I will probably like you more for being strong and clever, as long as your comments are strong and clever.
Don't ask me "what's my favorite." I will immediately not like you. I hate objective questions that I don't have an objective answer for. I will think you are trying to sum up an opinion in the few examples that I am able to list and I just need more time. So don't ask me my favorite; I most likely will not have one. And I suck at recall. I am competent in myself by myself. I know people feel obligated to talk to the "new girl" - to make them feel accepted. A lot of times the cheese comes with it. I hate when they come over with the hand outstretched and the cheese. They mean well, they mean well. I keep telling myself that. It could be worse - they could just stare at you. Don't feel bad for me darlin; I am just fine, but I will take your cookies even if you could never really be my friend in that way.
I would much rather have a small group of friends that I relate to where ever I go. I don't need the world to know me because the majority is not capable. I think I'm out to find my own kind yet still serve whoever I can. I am not above anyone and it is not a privilege to make it into my circle, I just literally think some just wouldn't want to be.
I always have a comment though - but not everyone can take them/understand them. There isn't really anything you could ask me that I wouldn't discuss. Again, I'm just not normally the one who is raising her hand to share.
Sometimes I dish out crap, and you should feel at ease to push it back. I will probably like you more for being strong and clever, as long as your comments are strong and clever.
Don't ask me "what's my favorite." I will immediately not like you. I hate objective questions that I don't have an objective answer for. I will think you are trying to sum up an opinion in the few examples that I am able to list and I just need more time. So don't ask me my favorite; I most likely will not have one. And I suck at recall. I am competent in myself by myself. I know people feel obligated to talk to the "new girl" - to make them feel accepted. A lot of times the cheese comes with it. I hate when they come over with the hand outstretched and the cheese. They mean well, they mean well. I keep telling myself that. It could be worse - they could just stare at you. Don't feel bad for me darlin; I am just fine, but I will take your cookies even if you could never really be my friend in that way.I would much rather have a small group of friends that I relate to where ever I go. I don't need the world to know me because the majority is not capable. I think I'm out to find my own kind yet still serve whoever I can. I am not above anyone and it is not a privilege to make it into my circle, I just literally think some just wouldn't want to be.
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