red is the color of my heart i promise

So worst thing I heard recently: love isn't always exciting. Okay 1 - if I ever love something, you better believe it's exciting. 2 - I'm not even that picky (if you know my boy past), just none of it was meant to be. 3 - I am rational and I know myself, sometimes I just know it's not going to work out. I don't need to waste precious time laughing at jokes that aren't funny or having any other pointless conversations just for the sake of filling time. Okay, perhaps I'm a wee bit harsh, it comes with the realistic personality. Thank you - the meal was to die for and you are a wonderful guy... for someone else. They don't realize I'm waiting for your call, not his...

So that's it. I'm not settling. It's Valentines week. hip hip hooray. Life is wonderful and love is in the air. I think it's a weird holiday to be honest. I love flowers. But I hate obligation. I really do think there is someone for everyone, and it's great to see when people connect. I really do just stand in awe. my life. other people are so awesome. Honey, I hope you aren't with her for valentines. just end it now. don't waste your money. "our" money =)

Here are some things I've been thinking lately:

1. Finance is stupid. I love budgeting, so that aspect is fun, but investment banking is just a game of paper. who started all this crap. I'm waiting for it to all fall through. O wait. It already has.

2. The interview process is the most inefficient thing I have been forced to endure. Some of these jobs are not even that serious people. Look at me. I'm competent. Please stop sending me through second and third interviews. Just hire me already.

3. I want to be upfront but I mostly struggle with doing so. I ignore phone calls. I am a girl who normally takes action to things I want, so if this is you wondering how to get the hint, that's it. I'm not playing coy. Yeah... definitely not me.

4. I'm tired of people hating on the introverts all the time. They claim it as a weakness. I mean I'm not saying it's okay to look at your feet and never speak up for yourself. There's another name for that. timid. All I'm saying is that we need a world of talkers and listeners. It's all about gaining a variety of skills.

5. I'm a girl so I multi-task all the time. I think of one thing so I do it, then I'm like I have 5 other things I also need too, so let's do that. So then, in my slightly chaotic reality I just created for myself, I find that nothing is really accomplished because I can't stand things that are half done or not done well enough. Quality versus quantity people. workin on it.

6. I got excited for the typing test at the job interview. weird? I just wanted to keep doing it over and over to see if I could get better. I was disappointed in my 99% accuracy at 60wpm. The keyboard was crappy. Blaming it on the keyboard. The min was 25wpm. I'm pretty sure a turtle could do that.

7. Most of my phone calls to my dad are in the car. When I call, he knows it's because I'm lost and on the verge of being stressed out. But I mostly remain calm...I think.

8. Most of my phone calls to my mom are when I'm cooking. When I call her, she knows there's a good chance I'm cooking something wrong.

9. I decided today I want to target my hips and thighs. I hate them and I want them to disappear. poof. I think the squats are helpful. tomorrow I'm going to go on a long walk (since my lungs reminded me how they bleed when running in the cold, that's all I needed to stop that spur of the moment insanity)

10. I still hate odd numbers and I have no idea why.