Jack-in-The-Box

I want out. And I want out bad. I feel like a time bomb. Ancy all the time. I keep thinking a month down the road. I keep thinking of the open road. Of making money again and having a schedule back. If I'm not working or going to school or both, I feel unproductive, which then makes me feel pathetic.

I said to myself I was going to stop writing. Same with having 25 albums on the web for everyone to see. I always get to this point...where I just want to clean everything out and start fresh. Same with deleting people on facebook. It's why I always battle with the idea of deleting facebook, of riding these public appearances and menial distractions. However, in the long run I believe they are important for networking and a good way to tell people what you're all about. Facebook and blogging does allow us to share and strengthen relationships. And hopefully it's the right relationships =/.

I normally like sharing, but I feel like it's become a bit much I suppose. I wish I could be the anonymous author and write about people and places and ideas, but that can't work with the knowledge that people I know read this and know who I am. Journal writing is hard because my hand always hurts before I get out everything I want to say. And sometimes I want to share my thoughts publicly. Don't worry, most don't filter through here; they stay in my brain until an unfortunate soul asks the question that begins an avalanche of thoughts in response. I can't hide my feelings people. I try until it starts overflowing. But while I'm just thinking of a list of things to do before September...

I've decided to record the Summa DOs

The Proposal
Naked: my new favorite drink
Road Trips down Country Roads
Chocolat
The Speckled People
The Peacemaker
Nicholas Sparks
My Golf Swing
St. Augustine
Portfolio
Leah's, Ashley's, & Teresa's Birthday
Cousin Sleepover
Tabitha's Baby
The Lake
Cruise
Photoshop Layers
Ipod Music
Erecruiting
Graduation Plan
Second Job
Apartment in Provo
Babysit
Fix my Sewing Machine
Sew Something
Running
YouTube Videos with my brother
Bachlerette and the Newlywed Couples with mom
Rand's mission call
Get updated in the News
Take another Perfect Picture
Create a Couple Portfolio

What's Still On My List Past FL...

Zion's Park
Repelling
Rock Climbing
Fishing
Tennis
Gathering Recipes
Service


And just to add to the random knowledge list. Here are things I learned about yesterday...
dinner table discussion worthy...

For each person there is about 200 million insects. to my dismay

The pig is rated the fourth most intelligent animal. outlandish

The tongue of a blue whale is as long as an elephant.

Millions of trees are accidentally planted by squirrels who bury nuts and then forget where they hid them.

Noah Webster, who wrote the Webster Dictionary, was known as a short, pale, smug, boastful, humourless, yet religious man.

The first color photograph was made in 1861 by James Maxwell. He photographed a tartan ribbon.

Hiccups: The best cure? Breathing into a paper bag. This calms the diaphragm by increasing the amount of carbon dioxide in your bloodstream.

The length from your wrist to your elbow is the same as the length of your foot.

The tallest nation in the world is the Watusis of Burundi. my kind of people

A person remains conscious for eight seconds after being decapitated