It Takes Two

So here's the story. about love. just kidding. words come and go. feelings define more. it just is. or it isn't. but at times the uncertainty, the possibility, the desire, the fear... can make it inbetween.

We all think we know what we want. And then something comes and we're thrown off our feet because we fall, yet it's different. Different than expected. maybe worse, maybe better. but different. So do we really know what we want? If you asked anyone they'd want a guy or a girl with good looks, good brains, a good heart, but we all know you can't like just anyone and everyone. So where does that difference lie? I don't know. I'm single. I just like to write.

Okay but seriously...everyone hates those times where you like someone, whether or not they have everything you expected, you like them...yet there's something missing. Your heart skips a beat, you get weak in the knees, you want to just love them...that's all there. But you open your mouth...AND... nothing...or everything and everything wrong. And you're left scared. Scared that you said the wrong thing, or didn't say the right thing and they got the wrong impression. This happens. Those who aren't worth your time...ignore you. You're hurt. You're sad, but you must move on. Because you know you're worth it.

So FINALLY someone laughs at your jokes. Someone wants to talk to you. Someone wants to even love you. And yet your heart doesn't skip a beat and you don't get weak in the knees. But they are an amazing friend...friend. Don't we all love that word. Friends are awesome, what could you do without them. But the opposite sex version of one can provide problems unless you KNOW there is no possibility...if both sides know, then it works. But you still want them, that comfort, but in a different body. That doesn't work. I tried. You can't pick and choose parts. But how can they love you, how can they understand you, when who you want doesn't? I'm single. I don't know what to tell you. It's just not your season...join the boat.

So how do you get over that hump of rejecting vs. rejection? Over the chemistry vs passion? When do you get both? Is it possible world? I dare say it is. Ask the couple batting eyes right next to you. They found it.

All we know is that it's a guessing game. You win some and you lose some. But you have to play. Yes yes i know, no one likes the game, but that depends on what game you're talking about. I'm not talking about secret hidden messages trying to give you hints on where my feelings lie. I'm talking about getting out there in the world, putting on your best smile, loving everyone, giving them all a chance, letting those you don't want back into the pond nicely, no tease, but stepping up to the plate to catch those that grab your attention, just don't be so vain as to forget about the one in the corner.

It's the same old thing, boy meets girl, and the world goes round. Right. it's that simple. Who's good enough for who. Want to know what I'm hoping for?

I want to find someone I want to be better for. I want them to be better for me. This way we're better for each other...with each other. But it's hard not to settle on what's there because it's there, to move on when you're hurt, or to read the signs that say go, slow or stop...It might even make you want to scream...but in the end. you find it. and then IT wants you and you want it...forever.

when the crowd fades and the lights turn on, when you're ashamed and feel inadequate, when you want to give up and can't hold on... They help you clean up, they tell you you're amazing, they tell you you can do anything, they hold you and help you press on.